A Neighbor or a Home?

Somehow it's very fascinating... to after school, take a stroll in the forest and feel like you've travelled thousands of miles. But the more time I spend outside, examining insects, plants and other phenomenons of nature, the more of a stranger do I feel like when I get back to work or school. The human world is rich in stimulating ideas, products and activities, but "nature is the vehicle of thought" as Emerson says and the quality of my life comes from it. Even though we are part of nature, we try more and more to make it look like it isn't so. Some of the people that I know are even embarassed of nature. The say that it's random, unorganized and dirty. There are children today that are terrified of forests and refuse to walk into them, because they are so very different from their home environment. Imagine what people they will become when they grow up. They will be the ones that nervously dump their garbage into the ocean, that design televisions with a screensaver as standby-mode, that buy tons of clothing every new season, that will take part in the overconsumption of medical treatments and throw away food that still is nice, fresh and healthy just because they passed the "best before-date" or because it had a black spot on it..
          The real world does not have "best before-date" stickers. It has senses. Senses created by chance, coincidence, and the will of surviving. All of our actions are somehow connected to the will of preserving life. Because we are part of nature. Because we won't live forever. And because the people that live in the human world are still always aware of the sprouting existence of what they have made a neighbor; nature.

Being Interviewed

Not long ago, I was invited to do an interview for a local radio station as an artist. Now, because of my previous years spent mostly in silence, I can't really say that I am very good at talking. There are few subjects I know enough to discuss, and the few I have put some thought in... well, people generally aren't as open/interested in them. It suits me well, I have always been introvert and have lately understood much of why it is so, and I am settling and feeling rather content with the answers I have found. 
      Anyhow, after doing some thinking, I decided it might be good practice. After all, I have realized that I have to be able to feel comfortable with making a conversation. Overall, it was a good experience and an opportunity to "market my music" which I am truthfully grateful for, but I'd rather avoid similar situations in the future..:


"Tell us about yourself." I was blown away. I said the first things that came to my mind; name, age and where I lived. They didn't seem too pleased. The interview continued with a lot of 'hmms' and 'errs'. It was not at all practice in making a conversation. The interviewer sat with an already prepared sheet with questions, his nose buried in it, the technician looked into his computer and even though I tried making eye contact with both of them, I found myself more or less talking to myself, or the walls,  or the roof, faintly aware that at least tens of people were listening to this strange... thing. It didn't make me feel better when the interviewer started giggling occasionally, probably assuming I was making a joke, which I didn't do, not once. Oh well, to the point:

I am a person in constant change. My mind and my way of being are as floating as a wind in a thunderstorm. There is not a recipe instructing "how to make a Lysander: add some happiness to three drops of cold tears, stir vividly 'til a chaotic song emerges from the substance and bake in oven for 18 years". I mean... How do you give answers about yourself that will last longer than, I don't know,  a year? Or do people really believe that they have been born to be a certain way? Or did I miss something, am I supposed to develope a certain way of being and remain that way, just because, so that people'll think they know me? I am different in different situations, and I like different things at different times of my life. I have always believed change is something good, something that enrichens. Talking about myself that much, only made me nervous of becoming too unfamiliar with myself...

Although, I can admit myself being very fond of spice ice creams for the time being!